By Marla Sanderson
Do you believe prayer works? Do you believe a limitless source of love, prosperity, and creativity is available to everybody?
If your answer is “yes” welcome to my world.
If your answer is “no,” welcome to my weekend.
Last weekend I looked through hundreds of photos, yearbooks, comments, and Facebook conversations. They were posted on a brand new Facebook group about my old high school and my old hometown. It was fun reviving memories of the place.
But, as the weekend wore on, my spirits got lower and lower—and certain minor snags in my current life began to look like life patterns that would never be resolved. Things weren’t happening as fast as I thought they should in certain areas of my life. It even began to look like God wasn’t paying attention and maybe none of this spiritual stuff ever really worked.
What could be more frightening than that?
The feeling was familiar—a vague sense of being smaller than my circumstances.
I had spent junior high and high school feeling pretty worthless and insecure—like a sad little alien among expert earthlings.
I was feeling some of that again.
The bigger part of me knew I’d come a long way, but there was a murky darkness somewhere within me that made it hard to pry my wilted spirit off the floor of my mind. So I did what I usually do in this kind of situation.
I wallowed. But as I wallowed, I employed my self-generating inner light beam—a tool I’ve used for many years. It goes everywhere with me. It’s completely portable, takes up no space, and doesn’t require batteries. (That’s the self-generating part.) It doesn’t cost a thing, and it brings “good” to almost every situation where I use it. The biggest challenge about this magnificent tool, though, is that I have to remember to use it.
I took a few minutes to imagine this wonderful, bright, white light coming from deep inside me and, when it was really strong, I imagined it shining into all the dark crevices and corners of that murkiness.
Every shadow of worthlessness revealed itself for what it was—pure B.S. It wasn’t true then and it isn’t true now.
Throughout this experience, I knew it would pass. It always does, and it did. More than that, I felt like I’d taken an internal shower.
When moods hit or I feel poor and pitiful, I know it’s just a shadow of the past reminding me to let go of more of my old self-concept. I am not that person anymore.
We all have ups and downs, and we can use them to beat ourselves silly. But we don’t have to. While touring the “pits” there’s something we can do to assure a better outcome than we had when we entered.
Light may seem like a trivial thing, but it’s a powerful spiritual tool to transform your energy, raise your vibration, and release negativity. It chases away the “nasties” and renews your mind, body, and spirit. What more positive thing can you do for yourself than that?
Oh yes, I wallowed, but I wallowed with a purpose. And I had my self-generating beam of light. I wouldn’t go anywhere without it.
I recommend you get one. Oh wait! You already have one. You just have to remember to use it.
Rev. Marla Sanderson has been a student of spiritual practice for more than 35 years. She began as Assistant Director of The Next Step, a psychic and spiritual community in a New Mexico ghost town. She’s been a workshop leader, teacher, practitioner, and minister of Living Love, and the Science of Mind. She recently founded the New Thought Global Network, a virtual “church” that offers inspiration anytime, from anywhere. The site showcases many powerful Science of Mind and New Thought speakers and writers, and intends to expand these teachings to the world. Check it out atwww.newthoughtglobal.org.
